Archive for November, 2005

写在十一月的最后一天

November 30, 2005
十一月的那一页马上就要翻过去了,我有点不舍,不仅因为这是北京20年以来最温暖的十一月,更是因为,对我来说——这是好特别的十一月。
 
十一月,简单而忙碌,我寄出了所有的申请材料,完成了自己两个月的申请马拉松,从11月17号收到谢大和曼大的签收email,到29号收到IC的确认email,所有的六份申请都已经平安落地,我所做的工作,应该到这里就可以算圆满了吧~现在对于offer的等待,其实我已经坦然。有那么多朋友陪我走过申请之路,我已满足。所有所有的经历,和友谊,都是我人生路上最精彩的片断和最宝贵的财富。
 
十一月,我和CARNOC上的朋友们一起,见证了布什对于中国的40小时的访问。在首都机场36R跑道边守候10个小时之后,看着空军一号和他的机队在面前呼啸着落地,伴随着我们咔嚓咔嚓的快门声,这是我最开心的一次拍飞机的经历——为了共同的爱好,共同的目标,我们共同努力付出,分享喜悦。而我的名字,也第一次出现在了公开出版报纸的头版之上——中国国际广播电台的《世界新闻报》,<直击布什访华40小时> http://gb.chinabroadcast.cn/2201/2005/11/22/145@790686.htm
感谢鲁晓冬,还有chougui17和超侧卫,你们是我最好的哥们儿~
 
十一月,还有你为我留下的印记。谢谢你,Irene,给了我不一样的生活。我们不需要别人的评断,因为我知道你清清楚楚的知道我们彼此内心的想法。你给我勇气面对一切,给我支持在我申请的路上,给我安慰在我需要支持的时候,给我如此深刻的影响。谢菲尔德,现在那是我的梦想的彼岸,让我飞向那里好吗?
 
用一首歌结束这一个月吧:
 
礼物  
歌手:许巍 专辑:时光.漫步 
 
让我怎么说我不知道
太多的语言消失在胸口
头顶的蓝天沉默高远
有你在身边让我感到安祥
走不完的路望不尽的天涯
在燃烧的岁月曾漫长的等待
当心中的欢乐在一瞬间开启
我想有你在身边与你一起分享
 
让我怎么说我不知道
太多的语言消失在胸口
头顶的蓝天沉默高远
有你在身边让我感到安祥
在寂静的夜曾经为你祈祷
希望自己是你生命中的礼物
当心中的欢乐在一瞬间开启
我想有你在身边与你一起分享
 
走不完的路望不尽的天涯
在燃烧的岁月曾漫长的等待
当心中的欢乐在一瞬间开启
我想有你在身边与你一起分享
在寂静的夜曾经为你祈祷
希望自己是你生命中的礼物
当心中的欢乐在一瞬间开启
我想有你在身边与你一起分享
让我怎么说我不知道
太多的语言消失在胸口
头顶的蓝天沉默高远
有你在身边让我感到安祥

真身被破——终于被交警点下来啦…

November 30, 2005
晚上去给贺卡,大大的漂亮的贺卡~
 
回来的路上,本来想走景山东街的,结果错过了右转的路口,只好向前走,走西安门好了,从北海南街右转的时候,我看见右转车道一道变两道,于是就并进了右侧的右转车道,刚拐过来,就看见警察叔叔的电棒亮了,慢慢向路中间走来,心想不好…尽管我不知道自己怎么了,但直觉告诉我他是冲我来的…
 
果不其然,红色的电棒在我面前挥了一下,只好闪了右向灯,靠边停车…
 
下了车,叔叔也没跟我敬礼(呵呵,最好别敬…),说了一大堆话,现在全都不记得了,最后说把驾驶证和行驶本给我看看~~~于是必恭必敬掏出驾照呈上…问警察叔叔俺怎么了,他说我未按道路标线形势,我一头雾水,他说那里分明是实心线,我还并线右转…我赶紧想咋办…网上常说要顺着人家说,除非你是律师,于是我只好说,啊,对,对,对对对对对……
 
突然他想起来我还没给他行驶本,我只好回车里找——呃…怎么找也找不到…警察叔叔大怒:啊?!行驶本都不带?!那得再来一百块钱啊!!!
 
……
 
我赶紧开始自我批评,啊,什么什么太毛糙啊,什么不守规矩啊,什么吓着急啊…反正做了深刻的自我检讨…
 
终于,警察叔叔冲我笑笑,以后不许这样了啊!这么年轻,大晚上没车,着啥急啊!
 
赶紧结果驾照,临上车之前再补上一句谢谢您…溜之大吉…
 
嘘~~~逃掉了200块钱…
 
回来一路我紧盯地面,看着有线没有…一不小心压上了道钉,那咯啦咯啦的声音搞得我心境肉跳的…
 
回家路上给妈妈买了一杯DQ的暴风雪,用的是买×得×的券,今天是有效期的最后一天了~呵呵,妈妈喜欢这种新鲜的冰激凌,嘿嘿,算是一个好的结局吧~

湍流基础期末开放试卷

November 26, 2005
1.论述湍流边界层、圆管湍流、明槽湍流这三种基本湍流的壁面剪切湍流的异同;
 
2.理想化的边界层转捩过程可分为几个阶段?湍流有哪些主要特征;
 
3.简述湍流猝发现象和过程,并介绍一种检测湍流猝发周期(或频率)的方法。
 
 
天煞的,天晓得该去哪里借书…又要泡图书馆了…

George Best 1946-2005

November 26, 2005

United Legend: George Best 1946 – 2005

It is with extreme sadness that we learned of George Best’s tragic death. He was 59.

The Belfast-born genius was without a shadow of doubt one of the greatest footballers the world has ever seen and in the opinion of many he truly was… the best.

Even Pele, the only exponent of the globe’s most popular sport to contest Best’s mantle, went on record to say that he thought George was indeed incomparable in football history. Loftier praise would be hard to acquire.

It would be impossible for anyone to deny that throughout his career he possessed a singular talent that was laced with greatness from the outset. Some would suggest that Stanley Matthews was the greatest ever, while others would plump for Tom Finney. Diego Maradona would certainly get some votes while the likes of Johan Cruyff and Alfredo Di Stefano would surely feature in the discussion. It has always been a tricky exercise comparing players from different eras, but there can be no doubt that George Best would have always stolen the show.

George Best Key Facts
United scout Bob Bishop spotted him playing for Cregagh Boys Club in ’61.
He made his debut in a 1-0 home win vs West Brom on 14 September ’63.
In ’68, he became the youngest-ever European Footballer of the Year.
Despite leaving at 26, Best played 466 games for the Reds, scoring 178 goals.

He was special in the world of football. He was destined to become the first genuine pop idol footballer, but his glittering career in the beautiful game almost didn’t happen.

Best arrived in Manchester as youngster in 1961 with his friend Eric McMordie, who went on to play for Middlesbrough, but was so intimidated by hustle and bustle of life in a big city that he was quickly back on the ferry to Belfast. Sir Matt Busby and Jimmy Murphy, the Reds’ legendary management duo, needed all their persuasive guile to tempt him back to Old Trafford, but succeed they did and it was amongst the best days’ work they ever did during their glorious reign at United.

Originally tipped for stardom by Bob Bishop, United’s hugely respected talent scout in Northern Ireland, Best proceeded to fast-track his way to the top. He made his debut, as 17-year-old, against West Bromwich Albion in September 1963, just a few short months after helping United win the FA Youth Cup for the sixth time. The Old Trafford crowd took him to their hearts instantly and he was to be their darling for the next ten years.

The club was still in the throws of re-building after losing the core of the great 1950s side in the Munich Air Disaster, and he proved to be the missing piece of the jigsaw alongside other great names like Bobby Charlton, Denis Law, Pat Crerand, Nobby Stiles and Bill Foulkes.

United picked up their first league title since before Munich in 1965, at the end of Best’s first season, and again two years later. Then in 1968 the European Cup, for so long the club’s holy grail, was finally captured and Best scored one of the goals as United defeated Benfica in front of 100,000 ecstatic supporters at Wembley.  

It was crowning moment of the club’s history at that time, but the team was showing signs of ageing and was ripe for another revamp. That was to take time and Best was increasingly relied upon to pull the team through when the chips were down. He was more than up to the task and on occasion he literally won matches single-handedly.

His excesses away from the game invariably made the headlines and his every move was splashed across the front pages. It became too much for him on several occasions and more than once he announced that he had played his last match for his beloved Manchester United. It was turbulent time with the club, going through a troublesome transformation and their one true world class star finding his name in the papers for all the wrong reasons.

He and United eventually reached the end of the road in January 1974 when after yet another reconciliation, orchestrated by then boss Tommy Docherty, the mercurial Irishman was left out of the team to play Plymouth Argyle in an FA Cup tie. Best knew it was the end and he left Old Trafford on that dismal Manchester day never to return, at least not in a playing capacity.

United had been robbed of perhaps the greatest footballing talent the world has ever seen at the time when he should have just been reaching the zenith of his magical career. He was 27 when he played his last game for Manchester United.

It wasn’t to be his last outing as a player for he went to represent a whole raft of clubs including Fulham, Stockport County and Hibernian as well as carving out a mildly impressive career in America. But, it was his personal life and a gradual decline into alcoholism that was to be his eventual downfall. His health suffered hugely and he became mere shadow of the handsome, vital superstar of earlier life.

Anyone who was lucky enough to see him in a Manchester United shirt has a unique and abiding memory that will never diminish, for to see George Best with a football at his feet was a sight that transcended mere sport. He was surely the most gifted individual football has ever produced and though many pretenders may have attempted to replicate his wonderful skills in the years since none has gone within a football pitch’s length of succeeding.

Capped 37 times by Northern Ireland, he made more than 450 appearances for United, scoring 178 goals – including six in one match against Northampton Town.

His passing will be mourned wherever football is played and in many places where it isn’t.

It is unlikely we will ever see his like again.

Best Loses His Fight For Life

November 25, 2005
United legend George Best has died, aged 59, following a long spell in hospital.

The sad news was confirmed at 12:55 GMT on Friday in a statement from the Cromwell Hospital, saying George had passed away after "a long and very valiant fight".

Best’s son Calum spoke to the world’s media outside the west London hospital. He said: "Not only have I lost my dad, but we have all lost a wonderful man.

"I’d like to thank Professor Williams [Best’s consultant] and everyone at the hospital for doing everything they could."

A family statement read: "As you can imagine this is a very difficult time, so you will understand if we are a bit emotional. George’s family would like to thank everybody that has supported us through this traumatic time.

"We have taken great comfort from the thousands and thousands of letters, cards and emails, especially during the long hours of the last few days.

"Finally we would like to thank Phil Hughes [Best’s agent and friend], who, for the last 25 years, has been a firm friend to George."

Best’s father, Dickie, then requested that the family be allowed "to grieve in peace".

Best, who was admitted to hospital on 1 October after suffering flu-like symptoms, had appeared to be making a recovery in recent weeks; last week he was reported to be "relatively stable" on a general ward. But he was re-admitted to intensive care last Friday after developing a lung infection.

His health deteriorated further on Tuesday. Complications caused by internal bleeding in the early hours of Thursday meant that his condition was irreversible.

He was arguably the most talented British footballer of all time. He made his professional debut for United in 1963, at the age of 17. He was named Footballer of the Year in England and in Europe in 1968 after helping the Reds to win the European Cup.

In the moments and hours after the news of George’s passing was confirmed, fans paid tribute to a United legend laying flowers, scalves, shirts at Old Trafford.

United will wear black armbands and observe a minute’s silence prior to the game against West Ham and at the club’s next home match with West Brom on Wednesday. All Premier League games this weekend will observe a minute’s silence.

Diabetes的梦魇,爱,还有我的爸爸

November 23, 2005

爸爸的尿糖检验的结果已经出来了,餐前和餐后都高了,II型糖尿病,确诊了。

我不知道该说些什么,或者说不知道该怎么样描述我现在的心情。

51岁,上个月才刚刚过完生日的爸爸,我不明白这一切是为什么,为什么会这样。

一直觉得,家里没有那些乱七八糟的遗传,高血压、糖尿病,或是乳腺癌什么的,甚至是牙齿,都很好。如果真说有,那可能就是我和妈妈这边的亲戚的胃一直都不太好。可为什么,糖尿病要来找爸爸!!!

其实对于家里人来说,我真正渴望的东西,是家庭,是关心,是健康。身份、地位、金钱、物质,其实都是虚无飘渺的,也许我没资格说这话,因为从小到大,那些优越的元素无一不是爸爸带给我的,可我也知道,这些东西就像水中月,镜中花,是过眼烟云。有时候,我真的希望爸爸能早点退休,他已经没有靠身体继续拼搏的本钱,而已经拥有的东西,也已经足够~~~我只知道,无论是北京医院,公费医疗,干部门诊,或是任何任何东西,我只想要我健康的爸爸,我只想要两张合格的检测报告…

我感谢爸爸,从小教会我如何做人,如何成为一个真正的男人,一个负责任、有涵养、同情心还有——诚实的人。从他身上,我看到如何肩负起家庭和事业的责任,感受他无言的却深厚的爱。

我会永远记得4岁幼儿园我磕破头他抱着我去医院,血染红他衬衫的情景——那是我最深刻的记忆;

我会记得初二他看见我胸廓变形,他带我寻遍全北京最好的心内科专家的情景——我知道爸爸爱我如此之深;

我珍藏他每次出国给我寄回的明信片——爸爸永远记着我的要求;

我会经常想起当我高一第一次跟他们去革命公墓看爷爷的时候,我哭成泪人,他默默用手握住我的肩膀——爸爸告诉我他永远是我最坚实的依靠;

我也记住我从小他从不打我,却也不会放过我的人和一个错误,给我最严厉的训斥——爸爸总给我最严格的家教;

我还记住他从四年前接手新岗位之后几乎从没在晚上九点以前离开办公室,尽管他的办公室主任总能按时搭乘五点的班车离开——爸爸对别人要求百分之百,对自己要求百分之二百——他离开中办的时候,每个下属都流泪了——他是他们最好的领导;

我记得过去的十年间,他从没让自己的司机接送过我一次,无论中学还是大学,看着别的宿舍楼前经常会有A6停下,而我却从不为挤公共汽车感到异样——爸爸让我明白,已有的一切,都不真正属于我,如果我想过上一样的生活,我也必须努力拼搏;

从小爸爸就规范我的衣食住行,但他也带我去体会那些与我们不同的生活——爸爸指导我成为社会中杰出的一员,但也让我牢记人人平等,要有同情心,告诉我自己并不是社会的全部,要有使命感;

他会让我看伤口的鲜血,尽管知道我晕血,他也会带我站在山崖边,尽管知道我恐高——爸爸带我爱上攀岩,他告诉我男人就应该勇敢的战胜一切。

没有爸爸,就没有现在的我。我责怪过他从小很少抽出时间陪我,但我了解他在我身上留下了太多太多的烙印,我感谢他给我一颗好奇的心,一双灵巧的手,感谢他教会我如何做人,让我明白人生需要拼搏的道理,感谢他给我最伟大的父爱,给我最深厚的依靠,感谢爸爸——谢谢你爱我至深

现在,他等着作进一步的检查,以确定病情的发展的速度和趋势,无论如何,都希望有个好结果吧。

我爱你,爸爸,永远爱你,爱你至深~~~

见证一个时代的离去~

November 18, 2005
半个小时之前,Roy Keane,Manchester United FC’ capitan,与曼联俱乐部达成了协议,在俱乐部继续支付Keane余下的500万英镑的薪水的情况下,与俱乐部节约,即刻成为自由球员。
 
现在的我,有些震惊,还没能完全相信已经发生的一切。
 
Keane,是真正的领导者,在他为UNITED踢球的12年半的时间里,感谢他为俱乐部所作的一切。
 
英超爆出赛季最惊人变动曼联宣布与队长基恩解约
 
希望他走好,希望他续写职业生涯的辉煌。
 
ONES A RED, ALWAYS A RED.

过去的爱——不能释然

November 15, 2005

今天下午上英语第二学位的写作课,课间,两个女生来发问卷做调查,她们说自己是首师大英文系的学生。

我的心,一颤…

说不清那一刻的感觉,已经很久没有她的消息了,似乎我也可以表现的超脱很多,但不经意的,又听到“首师大英文系”这几个字,发现自己,其实还远远没能释然。

明年就要毕业了,我们分开也已经三年多了,不知道在首师大英文系的她,现在怎么样了。对于大学的同学来说,只有同是北京人的哥们儿见过她,其它人,都不曾了解我的过去。

高中时候的我,年轻气盛,成绩好,还是班主任的课的课代表,锐气掺杂着傲气。而她,是公认的校花,至少在年纪里是名人,身材没的说,英语课代表。从高一第二学期开始,我们就是形影不离的一对儿

如果那时有人告诉我们,这感情有一天会彻底终结,我们会成为陌路,我们一定会愤怒的反驳这无理的诅咒。可今天的生活,我已经确实找不到一点她的痕迹——除了,我的心底。

责任——每一个男人应该承担的,那时的我却并不真正明白,错过了太多的东西,伤害了她,也伤害了自己。

看着上面支离破碎的文字,我都不知道自己要说些什么。如果我连自己的思绪都无法理清,又如何能理清我的行文呢?

有朋友跟我说,对于我来说,她已经只是过去的那个她了,即便她回来,我又会做些什么呢?也许吧,or not. 可我想知道,对于一个人来说,刻骨铭心的感情能有几次?我承认我们那时太年轻,太冲动,也许是盲目的,更是过于理想的,但不可否认的,我们曾经是那样投入的爱着彼此,多年之后,回想起来,能记住的,只有欢乐,和幸福的感觉。对于她,我只是不知道如何将她从心底去掉,或者说,是我根本不想去掉——她给我留下了如此深刻的烙印,在我的生活的细节,习惯,和我的心中,而我也感到自己欠她太多,也许永远不再有机会弥补。

情侣们常说,你流泪的时候,我会感觉到。过去亏欠你的泪水,我已经流出,但你是否真的能感觉到呢?

夜深了,我想起你,最近还好吧~~~

对不起大家,写的太乱了,因为我也不知道改怎么写…

 

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想起一首歌,from Spice Girls,

<Viva Forever>

Do you still remember, how we used to be
Feeling together, believe in whatever My love has said to me

Both of us were dreamers
Young love in the sun
Felt like my Saviour, my spirit I gave you
We’d only just begun
Hasta Manana, Always be mine
Viva forvever, I’ll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever, for the moment
Ever searching for the word

Yes I still remember, every whispered word
The touch of your skin, giving life from within
Like a love song that I’d heard
Slipping through our fingers, like the sands of time
Promises made, every memory saved Has reflections in my mind

Hasta Manana, Always be mine

Viva forvever, I’ll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever, for the moment
Ever searching for the word

But we’re all alone now, was it just a dream
Feeling untold, thay will never be sold
And the secret’s safe with me

Hasta Manana, Always be mine

Viva forvever, I’ll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever, for the moment
Ever searching for the word

谢谢帮助我和给我带来欢乐的朋友们~

November 14, 2005

I have sent all applications out finally. I don’t know how to express my feeling now, but the only thing I want to do now is to express my great thanks to those whom gave me a hand when I need help in applying. Without you, I can’t do everything so perfectly.

 

Many thanks to:

TrueLion in US, haha, you are my only brother with a same surname, thank you very much. 兄弟嘛,就不多说了~~~
Irene 呢喃(at Sheffield, it is you who influence me so deeply on my decision to set Sheffield as my first choice.
Timmy 启明(in Canada), my primary school classmate, my best friend.
Sagar Jani in Canadaand Sandra(in Switzerland)
Seunghyuk 小安, 外语系大三的学妹

GoogolLee, 既然提了小安就要提GOOGOL!!!
Simon Gilby, from Reading, UK, my English writing teacher

Lovegermany
狮子,
Bellelai
棉被MM,

ZJWS,
SuperChichi,
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Really appreciate for your assistance. Thank you.

写在寄出材料之后~

November 14, 2005
终于,桌上所有的表格已经不在了。
 
过去的两周,几乎可以被称作是煎熬。早早的完成了其它的工作,剩下自传还有CV简历,其实自己也早已完成初稿,只剩下交给几个朋友帮忙看一下。两周,稿子一点一点改,等待他们回信,自己也不停的翻出来看。我跟同学说,我真的好没心情继续下去——心中是一种莫名的焦虑和烦躁。
 
昨天上午,Sagi把最后一稿发到了我的邮箱里,okay,终于可以结束了。
 
今天上午,上完课,去了打印房,把他们打出来,70g的纸明显很淡薄,于是改成80g的纸,感觉厚实很多,当然,价钱也是一倍(有时候觉得家里也应该换成激光的,喷墨总是让我感觉不太踏实)。打出来,拿在手里,觉得PS的第一行,Personal Statement of Weiyi Shi应该黑体,字体也应该变一下——于是回去返工一把。哎,几页纸,弄死我了。
 
中午回到家,先去邮局把GPM寄掉,我是帖的邮票,没有问题,柜台看了一眼,也没有称,因为很明显我的不够500g,叫我全部封好口,给她就可以了。说一周差不多就可以到了。呵呵,挨着海淀区的中心分拣局,就是踏实一点。这也是我坚决不在学校邮局办业务的原因。
 
回来后联系那个约好了的快递代理。他说下午五点之前过来,本来想明天早上在叫他过来的,可是为了赶上明天上午的飞机,就还是下午过来好了,早走早踏实——其实也可以说是早死早超生吧,呵呵。结果敲门的人来了,开了门,他居然说没有带DHL的单据,问我有没有?!——我狂晕!难道运单应该是客户准备的吗?!okay,算了,给他打好了学校的地址,让他分别装进不同的EMS的文件夹里面,嘱咐他千万不要把推荐信装混了——因为我按照标准form letter把对方学校的地址打在了up-left上,所以装混推荐信会有灾难性的结果。电话联系快递的处理中心,埋怨他们怎么连运单都不带,可也没办法,让他抄地址的时候千万有问题给我打电话。(刚才代理打电话来,说已经填好了,运单号也告诉我了,okay,那就全好了。)
 
However,把所有表格都送出去,真的感到一种解脱。过去的这两个多月的时间,这些该死的东西耗费了我太多的精力。现在,承载着我的理想和希望,他们飞走了,好了,我也就可以听任时运的安排,安心睡觉了。
 
从最开始的索取表格(汗一个,其实一半的表格都是去年的);准备推荐信,联系老师;被一个教授拒绝,再准备一封推荐信,联系老师;班里成绩单;发现一门学分打错,重开成绩单;打PS草稿;打CV草稿;让朋友们帮着修改;填写表格~~~其间还有联系对方学校问乱七八糟的问题。很辛苦,至少自己是这样觉得的。其实确切来讲,应该是心有点累吧——劳心费神的工作。呢喃说她当时觉得太麻烦了,最后找了中介,呵呵,其实我也只差一点,不过还好,最后还是DIY了。
 
两个月准备的时间里,也可以让我静下心来,回头看看已经走过的这三年大学路,我取得的东西,错过的东西,骄傲、还有遗憾,我确实感谢这次出国的尝试,让我对自己有了一个更清醒的认识,意识到自己离真正的成功还差的很远,而为成功付出的汗水也太有限。安逸、和我所谓的悠闲的生活让我在过去的日子里失去了一些年少时的激情和拼搏。爸爸常说,我就是生活太安逸了,所以不思进取,我那时反驳他说,我根本就不是农村孩子,我不可能向他们那样具有动力。现在看来,自己是那样的狭隘、懒惰还有不讲理。Timmy说,我们都是那种家庭环境不错的孩子,但也都是那种不太希望靠父母的男生。是啊,我主动要求减少零用钱,不乱要买东西,在出国的问题上我心情也很复杂——一个22岁的男孩儿拿着快退休的父母的几十万出国确实让我有些不能理直气壮。可这一切的一切,不能光停留在脑子里,嘴皮子上,我不能因为高喊我要自立,我不乱花父母的钱,就真的自立了。这更需要用行动来辅佐,做好自己应该做好的工作,成为群体中出色的那一个,才能为自己的明天铺就一条平坦的大道。考上北航,进入了全国最好的工程院校,进入了培养出一代又一代航空航天人的学院,我显然懈怠了,不在有高中老师常说的那种锐气,剩下的只有“享受生活”的伪哲学。自以为自己的生活很逍遥,坐在食堂里笑话别人嚼东西不闭嘴,走在路上嘀咕那些西服袖口不剪商标、西裤配运动鞋的同学。这样的我就真的高尚了吗?!回头想想,我又什么资格嘲笑他们?他们来自遥远的农村,每周做两份、三份家教,早晨六点半出宿舍,晚上十一点回来,他们成绩优异,每学期的奖学金几乎可以cover全部学费——他们用自己的努力,改变了自己的生活,用自己的行动,减轻了家庭的负担——而我呢?从小到大,所有的一切,那一样不是父母给的?我又真正为自己的命运做出了多少真正的建设?
 
几周之前,我还在space里写了东西鄙视考研,但现在,我不会再这样说了。我认真的投入进来,认真复习——并不是我希望在本校继续上研究生——我一直认为人是需要换换环境的——我只是希望,考研,能时刻鞭笞我安逸懒惰的神经,给我一个机会,重新拿起那些并没有完全吃透的教科书,静下心来好好复习,真正掌握那些知识。因为,做学问的基础,是不分出国和考研的,打好基础,出国之后,也会有回报的。